A Little Louder Please

Most of my life I've been insanely restless. I've had to fight the want to do something different, want to be somewhere else itch almost forever. I think marriage and motherhood have tamed me and I appreciate what I have and where I am but...

The recent mention by my husband of an opportunity to move cross country has got my mind whirling. Because it involves a job change and all the instability uncertainty associated with that I am not fully able to embrace the thought of leaving what we have here. The thought of new experiences, a new city, being closer to my family is exciting though.

It's really great where we are. I love the pace of life, family atmosphere, easy cost of living, security, safety. I can see raising my kids here and staying until they are in college. But often I'm all too aware that something is missing. I can't put my finger on it but it's like I'm not where I'm suppose to be. Maybe it's also that moving would be just the right change to shake things up and wake me up out of the comfortable slumber I've been in. Speaking of slumber I'm really tired. I guess I'll call it a night. Goodnight.